so. i was looking through all my posts from when i first started blogging. i never ever just write about anything really anymore, and i don’t much like that. so, i decided i am going to write a good old blog post tonight.

people around me have been really irratating lately. everyone seems to just expect perfection out of everyone else. i realize i do this very much also. i don’t know, i am just sick of people getting angry and all bent out of shape over silly things, that in the long run don’t really make a difference. i wish i could just go away for a while. take my own personal vacation, by the ocean someplace. wouldn’t that be amazing. i dream about the ocean a lot, i even daydream about it when i get stressed out or upset. just thinking about the sounds and feelings, make me feel good. i haven’t been playing my guitar lately either. it’s sad actually. i feel like it lost my interest because i just got too overwhelmed with everything else. i found it to be relaxing and just took me to a place where nothing mattered but me and god. i know people probably wont understand that, and i don’t expect anyone to really. i just feel infinite when i play, i miss it. it was crazy to me, because i could be depressed or angry and literally crying my eyeballs out and i could pick up that guitar and play for a minute, and be completely happy. it’s wonderful, really.

i also really miss drawing and painting and things like that. i haven’t been just doing my own thing. in school i do lots of art projects and drawing and stuff, but i don’t enjoy being told what to create. i like just sitting down and letting my mind go wild. i miss that, a whole lot. i think ive just let other people take up too much of my time and ive wasted a lot of time doing stupid things. this is getting long, i think ill be done for the night.